Cecilia's Darlings

Monday, May 12, 2008

Friday, May 02, 2008

May Day Carnival @ SSC

Mark Mark's spider man

Paul Pual spider web (his hand is fatter)

Celeste's face paint

things happened in the past few days at home & at the office.

it is not easy to deal with the current situation. it is my fault that i take it for granted that others will understand me or bear with me.

looking back, there may be better ways to deal with some issues or my emotions. life is like that always, isn't it? there is always " if only....
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i did some childish things in the past few days. after cooling down, I laughed at myself too.

anyway, i've decided to put it behind & move on
as sy said, i have a new baby on the way with 3 little ones at home.
i have to be healthy & optimistic.

thx, sy! & ur unexpected comfort!

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Friends or not

“ The little friends thing” - Do I have “little” friends? well I do have a lot of friends in & outside the office. That U don’t’ see doesnt mean I don’t have any or little .

"The personal thing” - Like u say, everybody has his/her own problems & everybody wants care/attention & understanding from other. But “Sometimes we expect far too much of the people around us, and because no one can ever live up to those expectations, we are almost always disappointed.” That’s why I don’t, hence I am not that disappointed. If some pp have expected a lot from me, I am afraid that it is probably too much for me.

“ The secrets thing” – I don’t dig for pp’s personal stuff. I don’t force u to tell me. I am more than happy that you keep it to yourself & your friends.

“ The backstabbing” – come on! U r here long enough to know how the office works. Do you need me to tell me what to do & what not to do? when u tell pp abt me, are u giving the full picture or your story only. Am I being backstbbed too?

“ The making use of pp thing” - I don’t “ use” pp. I deserve where I am now & I earned it through hardwork not by “ bad mouthing pp” or “ backstabbing pp. I’ve proven to everyone I am good at my work. on the job, i've been through what you have & more than you - 7 years of hardwork.

“The dumping friend thing” – Violent objection. I’ve never dumped my friend. Indeed some left because they are not mature enough to divide work from friendship. As a sup I can’t bring friendship to work when you make mistakes & are always absent.

“ The pretend-to-be-poor thing” – well, I don’t. I am telling the truth. It is fine that U don’t understanding but u have no right to judge me like that. Like I’ve never been in your position, you’ve never been in mine.

“ The bothering pp thing” - I am not that stupid. I can tell & I don't bother anyone.

"The bring you down thing" - I will gain nothing from it. If u r doing the right thing, who can anyway?

“ The change thing” – yes I admit I‘ve changed because I’m a sup & have different responsibilities. How about you? Compare with 1 year ago how is your attitude & commitment?

“ The Anger thing” – I do have temper. Everybody does. I am not going to use my pregnancy as an excuse. The work load sometimes make me mad. Again u don’t understand & that’s OK.

"The dominating thing" - Yes I do like to be in control. I want to be the strong one in life. In the office, everyone is here to get the work done. as a sup I have to make sure of it.

“The blog thing” - u have every right to do whatever you want to ur blog. Hay, no objection! Likewise.

"Books and friends should be few but good."